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Sunday, November 19, 2006
11:19AM
went to daydreams last night for part deux of joanna's birthday weekend.
kate and i found the hottest/most hilarious/awesome stripper and became territorial.
got a lap dance together.......
oh and paid to see joanna go on stage and get stripped/grinded on by two naked ladies.
toooo much. so glad she had an awesome time though.
amazing strippers (i.e. must have banging bodies and great personalities, make you feel comfortable!) are quite something.
i love it.
ps. i am not a girl-kiss virgin anymore.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, November 18, 2006
7:44PM
my girlfriends and i are the most fun ever.
we totally took over the dancefloor at fucking PJS on rt. 70.
not even expecting to dance last night turned into much much more fun.
especially choreographically dancing to 'beat it' by mj.
made fun of creeps,
met new COOL people,
and got the most creative bouquet of flowers at the end of the night.
i will never be able to listen to 'beat it' the same way again.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
7:12PM
i just posted this as a blog on myspace as well:
being stuck in my house all of today totally did me in.
i couldn't iron the creases in my work pants the right way...
and when my dad told me to calm down,
i just lost it.
then i was the brat who was getting all worked up and upset over the creases in my pants.
luckily, my beloved mother came quickly to lend a hand.
compulsions have been growing.
i feel very tense, most days.
and today, i frowned upon anyone i spoke to on the phone (both callers were two of my closest friends)...
simply because.
nothing seems right today.
and i guess that makes sense.
five years is a long time.
i still think that day changed a lot of people.
and i still believe that five years ago i turned into who i'll be the rest of my life.
Sunday, November 5, 2006
11:53AM
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Monday, September 4, 2006
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
10:36AM
worst dream ever:
i went to dave's house in a panic,
sort of like i knew something bad was happening.
i rush down the basement stairs where i hear people hanging out,
get downstairs... and see the little asian girl (one of the new girls who hangs out with all them now)
going down on dave, while dave is sitting on the couch.
at this point i am crushed and enraged,
i totally disregard the girl's position and start screaming at dave.
i say things like "what the FUCK are you doing?!", "so this is why you guys are all about hanging with these sluts?", and "you're fucking DISGUSTING"...
apparently really awesome things i could think of so quickly.
then the dream goes to bits and pieces.
i remember him trying to explain or something and it sounded like the dumbest thing ever.
i don't know.
that dream really blew.
on all counts.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
7:25PM
this totally took me aback.
completely unrelated,
i picked out/ordered new [kennethcole] glasses today.
they are lovely and i can't wait to start wearing them as soon as they come in.
also,
i am more than half-way finished with the final week of extended schoolyear teaching.
i think it is pretty much set in stone that i will be working in the high school wing, come september, with my top choice facilitators (and friends. yesss.)
and i get a week's vacation before going back to gpa for in-services and setting up the classroom and stuff.
yes.
Thursday, August 3, 2006
6:29PM
i just posted this on myspace:
http://www.courierpostonline.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20060803/NEWS01/60803015
<td bgcolor="#e8f1fa" width="14%"></td>
<td style="" width="575">i'm just trying to get the word out.
one of my students from last year lost everything,
including two family members,
in a fire burning at his home while we were in school today.
i just wanted to extend this to my friends in case you or someone you
know would like to help in any possible way. clothes, donations,
whatever.
this was heart-breaking news today and i would like to do as much as i
can to make this any easier for him. so, if you want to help out too,
that'd be awesome.
thanks for hearing me outttt.
xo</td>
Friday, July 14, 2006
8:36PM
back to work for summer school.
got through the first week and had a lot of fun on our first friday field trip to go bowling.
a couple things i wanted to document which have made me feel genuinely good at gpa:
1) i have been talking to the big-ups administrators of the school about my placement/team for the 2006-2007 school year.
it's looking pretty promising. and i am extremely pleased with how receptive and understanding dr. steve and dr. starcher have been regarding my input.
we all seem to see eye-to-eye on this anyways. so this calms my nerves about the regular school year coming up.
2) i have seen my students from this past year in their new classrooms for the summer and in the hallways, and the way they have approached me is amazing to me.
so mature and caring. displaying all of this through their faces when they address me. it's seriously awesome.
today at the bowling alley, reggie came up from behind me and gently touched my shoulder to say hello once i turned around. with a huge smile.
this coming from a boy who is not a touchy-type, in that respect (if you tried patting his back for a job well-done last year, he would not appreciate it.)
i also jumped in a game with kevin, who has made such an improvement since the beginning of last year. he's hilarious.
and his sportsmanship was undoubtedly impressive (this is one skill he consistently needs to work on with his peers.)
3) even the younger kids have ridiculous perception.
ms. joy (my social worker for the summer) brought in two students to do individual counseling with, whom i've never been properly introduced to.
however they both told her they knew me... jaquil explained that we've spoken in the hallway, and caesar... well, he said that he had seen my name on the scoreboard during bowling and that i had made some strikes. !!!!
i am definitely impressed.
and touched.
this summer won't be that bad, i know it.
i'm already looking forward to next schoo lyear.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
10:08AM
so yet another friend has committed suicide.
i didn't know him too well; i had met him through dave.
rip jay evans.
the news of this sent me into a semi-depressive state for the remainder of the evening.
kate and i spoke briefly about it and how truly sad this 'trend' of happenings keeps involving people we've met (even at least once).
if i could, i would help anyone i knew was in need.
it's bothersome that it almost feels as though someone could be contemplating suicide while all his/her friends have no idea. or don't care to.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
4:56PM
today at the end-of-the-year staff luncheon,
awards were given out.
i was voted garfield park academy's teacher-of-the-year for 2005-2006, by staff.
this completes my first year of teaching.
what a surprise/accomplishment.
i'm pretty much blown away. and proud :)
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
10:50PM
because i'm not in the mood to write...
saw/spoke to dave for the first time in over 3 weeks at kelly's grad party this past saturday.
it was okay. civil. not really personal. "how have you been"s passed back and forth.
i left about a half hour after he arrived, which was enough for me to handle, i felt,
and he gave me a hug goodbye and told me not to "be a stranger".
i said "okay" and told him to take care.
in the work part of my life,
i am on the list to work summer school.
we have a meeting about that on friday.
the session will go from july 10 through august 18. not too shabby.
there is also buzz about me being in so-and-so's room with so-and-so, regarding next year's placement.
i am incredibly busy and anxious about everything right now.
i'm just working on ENDING my first year yet. jeez people.
i know who my true match is.
Wednesday, June 7, 2006
5:19PM
i haven't been motivated to livejournal.
still don't really.
but i'd like to keep track of where i am.
i'm currently upon the umpteenth day of overcast/rainy weather.
i don't really mind it during the week but when it runs through the weekend,
that's when i start getting peeved.
i haven't spoken to dave in over three weeks.
of course i miss him in my life,
but i do not miss feeling unappreciated, or waiting for him to change, or making "it" up to him.
i believe this is a good thing.
i saw 'the break-up' last night ('the omen' was sold out...booo) with some of the people i hold closest to my heart.
and throughout the movie i think we were ALL relating to it.
i teared up pretty bad because it freaked me out,
how apparently vince vaughn movies now shadow my life at the given time when they premiere.
haha.
but seriously.
it made me think. not second-guess myself. but think more about decisions i've made.
and i am happy where i am right now.
i'm not worrying about impressing anyone.
i'm doing what makes me happy.
and someone is reciprocating. which is all i really wanted all along.
i guess it took time to learn.
gpa field day is tomorrow if the rain lets up and dries out.
then all next week = half days for the kids.
and then the 22nd is staff's last day for the regular school year.
i'm almost finished my first year as a teacher!!
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
4:27PM
haven't been in the mood to livejournal lately.
i'm not worrying.
about the future or anything closer.
i haven't figured out entirely what i want right now... besides the fact that i want to feel cared about ALL THE TIME.
but i have figured out exactly what i DON'T want.
i don't want to settle for less than i deserve.
i am not impossible to please.
and for anyone who thinks otherwise,
i'm finished wasting my time on you.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
5:18PM
rip zach. :(
i was a geisha today.
ms. carmen did my hair and it still looks fabulous.
all staff (coworkers and administration) were thrilled,
and stopped into room 7 for our presentations.
our japan was a hit.
Monday, May 15, 2006
6:11PM
something awesome for me to keep in mind when i don't feel so awesome:
1. memorial day weekend starts in 1 week and 4 days and does not end until 5 days after that.
2. the first full week of june is the only week of full days (for students).
which means, from june 12-21 = all half days (for students) followed by in-services/taking apart classrooms.
and THEN, if i end up being approved for summer session,
that doesn't begin until july 10.
nice.
5:21PM
apparently it's no secret:
i'm impossible to please.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
10:20PM
it's truly unbelievable to me,
how i can be fine at one given moment,
even out of a day,
yet at any other given moment,
feel completely alone. unhappy. etc.
god, i just don't get it.
i can't figure anything out.
i can't seem to get back to where i used to be...
maybe i'm not meant to.
but i wish this stage would end soon.
it's lasted too long already.
last mental health take-off day for miss rebecca tomorrow.
Saturday, May 13, 2006
12:33PM
the first lighthouse i've ever seen in person. barnegat.
the drive down:
michael jackson's greatest hits.
followed by an instrumental band i became fond of (i forget the name of it).
sitting bitch and having a familiar arm around my shoulder.
whispers. being kissed in a squeeze of his friends.
"you kill me."
"i want to be with you."
"i've been trying to think, like, what i want versus what i can handle right now."
"can we just go slow?"
...i thought we already were.
stray cats.
pathways to the inlet.
barnegat lighthouse in the middle of the night.
rock-stepping over the water.
picnic area.
small scattered snails on the pavement of an animal sanctuary.
i bet it's just as beautiful in the daytime.
Friday, May 12, 2006
3:37PM
every once in a while,
it's nice and free-ing to just say "whatever" on a thursday night,
and go out. and return late.
sleep for 4 hours before finishing out the workweek.
my principal observed me today,
and i was run down as hell. but i think i did very well.
i had fun last night.
not worrying about whichever boy in my life.
just out with friends who were into doing what i was into at that point in time.
granted, it was at cheerleaders in philly...
still. very good time.
and now i'm ready for a nap, and then babysitting, to start off my weekend.
ps. back to the weekly routine goal.
nothing else is working again.
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